I long for consistency. A rhythm to my days that might allow me to prepare for tomorrow. Yet it is over two years since my injury, and I still seek to find my place in this crazy world. It seems like every time I think I know where I stand, everything changes. Sometimes the change is good, other times it’s bad. I have brought change upon myself, and many times it has been out of my control. Frankly, I’m sick of change, but I also know that I must embrace and deal with it if I want to find happiness. It was only a month ago that I wrote to you about my puppy, Chuey. How Summer and I were raising him, and I was learning a new way to live. The challenges we faced brought happiness and frustration, along with discouragement, and breakthroughs of euphoric accomplishment. It was a change in good ways and bad, and just as I began to feel that rhythm, life changed again. In July, Summer and I split up. While this is important to note on my site, and has affected me on a deeply personal level, this matter frankly concerns only Summer and me. But I will say this: While I’m not big on clichés, there is one that I think speaks true this time. For it honestly was better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. Summer was my rock during the darkest of times, and she brought me back from death’s door, showing me that life is still worth living. It is for reasons like these that I cherish our time together.
As for Chuey, neither of us could properly raise him alone. Because of this, we have found him a new family, with whom he will be happy, loved, and taken care of. I will miss him, but while I am capable of raising a dog, it is best for me to let him go in order to focus on what lies ahead, and better for Chuey to get the life he deserves.
I have officially registered for college courses starting at the end of August. Monday through Friday this Fall semester I will be taking night classes at Montgomery Community College, and Northern Virginia Community College. I will be starting prerequisites for a future medical career. This semester will focus on College Chemistry, Biology, and Psychology. In addition to my weekly night courses, I am starting my internship at the hospital. I have met the Physician’s Assistant who will be my mentor, and should begin working with her within the next couple weeks. To add to the excitement, I have an operation scheduled for August 29th, which will aim to revise the scarring on my arm, and the removal of excess soft tissue and bone around the elbow. The planned surgery is supposed to be relatively straight forward, so I’m just hoping for no complications.
To set my mind at ease before embarking on the challenges above, I am taking a vacation in mid August. A wonderful church group from Colorado and countless other supporters have raised funds for a Hawaiian vacation to the island of Kauai. My brothers John and Steve are planning to join me, and hopefully the air down there will help me heal from my current loss, and clear my mind to focus on what lies ahead. As for consistency, I suppose that the only thing that is constant, is change. I can’t go back, only forward, so I’ll continue dealing with what comes tomorrow, and wherever I stand, I’ll write about it next time.
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